Could he play this super hard piece himself? You bet, and yet he probably committed suicide. I read the Holden biography, and T so undervalued his worth as a man and composer.
Some want to strike him another blow. “In the wake of Russia’s unprovoked invasion of Ukraine in February 2022, students at the Tchaikovsky National Music Academy of Ukraine, previously known as the Kyiv Conservatory, have pushed for the removal of the Russian composer’s name from their university.”
Note: the entire concerto is about 38 minutes.